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Materia Medica Viva Volume 7 – page 1490

patients feel that their whole being is becoming diffused and that they are losing control over themselves. As stated above, this terrifying state is the origin of the overwhelming fear of insanity, which is experienced as the fear of losing control.
The patients are reluctant to reveal their intense fear. They often won’t admit that they even experience ‘floating’ sensations and may often be afraid that the physician will refer to them using the word ‘insanity’. There is a marked desire for control, emerging from their feeling of diffusion; they employ all their strength to hold themselves together, which is very difficult and requires constant effort. They may feel that they should control everything. For example, if you give them a lift in your car they might feel the urge to tell you how to drive: “Please stop, please go on, don’t drive so fast,” etc.
One doesn’t see the same anxiety and panic in the Pulsatilla fear of insanity; it is altogether different from that of Cannabis. Puls, patients will say, amidst much weeping, “I’m going crazy,”; they cry interminably. Cannabis patients don’t make such an emotional display; instead they exhibit a great intensity behind which resides tremendous anxiety. Their questions are asked with great intensity: “Am I crazy? What remedy will you give me? Will it be the right one?”
This fear of insanity, in the form of fear of losing control, is so overwhelming and disturbing that the person feels as if they’re living permanently in hell (instead of the paradise which the drug seemed to promise). Other symptoms, such as indifference, confusion of the mind, endless theorizing, confusion with regard to time, and so on, are nothing in comparison to the turmoil that is brought about by the fear of insanity. We have been treating cases of hashish abuse dating back ten or fifteen years, who are still suffering from the consequences.
An overwhelming general anxiety about health is often connected with this fear of insanity, but it also won’t be admitted. Further on,