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Celle Seminar I, Case 3: Syringomyelia

(M.P.): Sometimes when I see people looking at me—at the way I move and walk—I feel a little bit of despair. I can tell what they are thinking, and that sort of bothers me. (G. V.): Do you cry easily? (M.P.): No.
(G.V.): You never cry at all?
(M.P.): Only on emotional occasions. For example, if I speak to a friend at Christmas and he says, »I hope you have a good time this Christmas,« or something like that, I become a little bit tearful. I’m much more quick-tempered than I used to be. I flare-up very quickly, but I usually simmer down just as fast. I’d say this has been the case only since I have had meningitis. In the past, I was very, very calm; it took a lot to upset me. (G.V.): Are you very easily roused to anger now? (M.P.): I’m not a constant complainer, but I get irritated relatively easily when my children do something silly or if something goes wrong at work. I just seem to get uptight faster than I did in the past.
(G.V.): What do you do when you get very irritated? Do you swear, throw things, or get physically violent?
(M.P.): Of course not.
(G.V.): You do not hit or swear?
(M.P.): No. Sometimes if the people in the workshop have broken or ruined something, or if the children have done something
wrong, I might shout a little, but that’s all.
(G.V.): Has anyone ever told you that you grind your teeth while
asleep?
(M.P.): No.
(G. V.): Not even in the past?
(M.P.): No, my son grinds his teeth at night, but I don’t, at least
my wife has never mentioned it.
(G.V.): Perhaps your wife sleeps too deeply to notice?
(M.P.): I’m a member of a hunting club, and occasionally we go
on overnight excursions and then we bunk several to a room. I’m
quite sure that some of my friends would have said something
about me grinding my teeth if I had!

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