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Celle Seminar I, Case 2: Insanity

(F.P.): It was during my school years. I was maybe twelve years old.
(G.V.): When you had that first relationship with the man you later left, did you still have eczema? (F.P.): No.
(G.V.): Did you have facial acne?
(F.P.): I had acne during puberty, but I did nothing to prevent it. (G.V.): When you ended that first relationship, was it because you might have felt very jealous? Did your boyfriend eye other women?
(F.P.): No, quite the contrary. He was very sorry when I left him, in fact he cried. Thinking about it today, I can’t understand why I left him.
(G. V): I see. You were not at all jealous of him during your relationship?
(F.P.): No, there was no reason to be.
(G.V.): You say that there was no reason to be jealous, but could you have been jealous anyhow, without reason? (F.P.): I find that difficult to answer now. (G.V.): Because it was so long ago? (F.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): Can’t you remember what you felt? (F.P.): I remember very well, and I can’t picture myself as having been jealous of anything at the time. The situation was different in the relationship with my husband before we were married. (G.V.): What was different?
(F.P.): In that very first relationship there was no reason to be jealous because everything was right. In comparison, my relationship with my husband was initially quite superficial. He turned to other women, or at least one other woman. (G. V.): Your husband?
(F.P.): Yes. I learned shortly thereafter—from the other woman herself—that my husband had asked her to marry him. I asked myself, » What’s the matter with me?« I think this was a natural reaction. (G.V.): And then the idea of marrying him, the desire, arose?

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