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Celle Seminar I, Case 2: Insanity

place. Does your wife behave like a crazy or a normal person between the crises?
(H.): If she has not slept for a long period of time, she becomes afraid. I would describe her fear as a wall: she becomes more and more distant and aggressive towards people. At these times it becomes difficult to deal with her. We go around each other so as to avoid any upsets. In situations like this, when she is all keyed up, you must not say anything that might upset her or might be misunderstood, because the moment you do, she explodes. This difficulty grows over a period of time, with small interruptions. It was for this reason that I didn’t want my wife to leave the house or to have to deal with too many of the world’s problems because she is not capable of coping with them afterwards. She concentrates on problems to the extent that her worrying causes her to either lose sleep or to have nightmares. This goes back to the very first years of our marriage and it’s gone on constantly ever since. For example, we’ll be asleep and suddenly she’ll let out a terrible scream: »No, no, no! Go away!«, or something equally frightful. (G. V.): During the night?
(H.): Yes, and then I’d wake up and realize that I was frightened too. My wife’s pulse would be racing on these occasions. I would wake her up and say, »Look, here’s the bed, here I am, here’s the light, there’s no reason to be afraid.« I would try to soothe her, have a calming affect on her, but she’d look at me strangely, fearfully, as if she didn’t see me at all, as though she were still dreaming. I’ve constantly thought about this: What is it? How do you get to the root of this? Of course, then you come to all sorts of strange ideas as well. My wife hasn’t tried to find out whether there’s an illness or psychic disorder behind these dreams which perhaps has not yet been discovered by classical medicine. Because, after all, we only use the materialist view of society and of the world as a whole. I mean, we think that the only things that exist are those we can perceive.
(G. V.): If you are finished, I would like to ask you to leave the room so that I can speak to your daughter alone, (husband exits)

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