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The Celle Seminars_Page 356

George Vithoulkas

(G.V.): What do you do? Can you look down from a balcony? (F.P.): Yes, but any higher and I look and then go away. (G.V.): Do you have any other fears? (RE): Fear of conflict.
(G.V.): You don’t want to come into conflict with others? (F.P.): Fear of expressing my own opinion. If I’m in a group and we’re discussing something, I usually won’t express my own opinion because I am not quite sure whether it’s right. My opinions aren’t stable, sometimes I think one thing and then the other. (G.V.): Are you easily influenced by others? Would their opinions make you change your own? (F.P.): Maybe, yes.
(G.V.): Is it easy for you to make a decision? (F.P.): It depends. There are things that I am very sure about, for example, I know exactly what I want. And then there are things that I am very unsure of.
(G.V.): Do you usually have a bad opinion about yourself? (F.P.): Yes, most of the time. (G.V.): That you are not doing well?
(F.P.): Yes. If something happens, I immediately think that I’m responsible for it, that it’s the result of something I did wrong. (G.V.): Anything else? Are you afraid of animals? (F.P.): Yes. I used to be afraid of dogs and cats, but then a couple of years ago I took care of a friend’s animals while he was on holiday and since then I feel normal around animals; I like them. Years before I was very afraid of cats. I thought they would bite me if I touched them. I used to cross to the other side of the street when someone was heading my way with a dog, even the small¬est dog. Now it has changed and I like animals very much. (G.V.): Thank you.

FOLLOW-UP INTERVIEW

(F.P.): On February 8, 1988,1 took the remedy, and then on February 11, a strange thing happened: my face became red and started getting hot on one side and cool on the other side; the left

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