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George Vithoulkas

(G.V.): When you go into the states where you are depressed, how do you feel then?
(F.P.): In that condition it wouldn’t matter to me if I died. I’d just let myself fall into a hole. I feel like Good Friday and Easter Sunday. I feel that I will learn something, will experience something. (G. V.): By dying?
(F.P.): No, through depression. Now I’ve come to a point where I like my depressions.
(G.V.): Do you have any fears about people? (F.P.): I think so. (G.V.): Any leukorrhea? (F.P.): No.
(G.V.): How do you react to the sun?
(F.P.): It’s difficult. If it’s cold enough, with wind or water nearby, I can bear the sun; but if I lay down in the sun in my own garden and it’s too hot, I get tired. Still, it’s better than it used to be. In my youth I couldn’t bear the sun. (G.V.): You say that you can cry easily now? (F.P.): Not very easily, it depends on the occasion. (G.V.): But if you talk about your symptoms, do you sometimes cry?
(F.P.): Maybe.
(G.V.): You cried a little bit here. (F.P.): A little bit, not too much.
(G.V.): The second time you had tears in your eyes, you stopped yourself.
(F.P.): I like to stop them.
(G.V.): When you cry, can you cry in front of others? (F.P.): I can now, but I wasn’t always able to. I think I find it easier now, although it depends on the relationship. I don’t cry in front of just anyone.
(G.V.): Do you cry mostly to complain or out of emotions? (F.P.j: Emotions.
(G. V.): Your emotions become strong and then you cry? Are you ever violent? Do you hit your husband?

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