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Celle Seminar I, Case 11: Cervical Spine Syndrome

comings and my deficiencies whenever performance was required.
(G. V.): Let me try and understand this point: your parents did not understand your brother’s weakness, and this affected you in what way? I want more-
(F.P.): I had to learn very early not to show any weaknesses. (G. V.): Why? What would have happened if you’d shown weakness?
(F.P.): I probably would have received just as little recognition from my parents as my brother, (sobs)
(G. V): Did you realize that your parents did not care about your brother? Is that what you are implying?
(F.P.): My brother was constantly criticized, and whatever he did wrong was pointed out to him.
(G. V.): Was it that you did not want to be put in the position of showing weakness for fear that you would be criticized as well? (F.P.): I think so.
(G. V.): There are no other children in the family, just you two? (F.P.): Yes.
(G. V.): Do you still think that your parents are very critical? (F.P.): Yes, my father is very restrained about it, but he is still quite emphatic, it is still very noticeable. My mother died four-and-a-half years ago.
(G. V): Were you more emotionally attached to your mother? (F.P.): 1 think so.
(G. V.): Did it affect you greatly when she died? Did you suffer, cry a lot?
(F.P.j: Only when I was alone, (laughs) But I don’t think I have problems any more about my mother.
(G. V.): When your relatives came to visit you, was it as if they had come just to criticize you? (F.P.): No.
(G. V.): Why did you feel so pressured? (RE): I always feel like that. (G. V.): With your father? (F.P.): With my family, especially with my father.

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