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Celle Seminar I, Case 1: Epilepsy/Asthma

(G.V.): Why do you think that you have developed epilepsy? (F.P.): I don’t know. I would prefer not to have it. I just wonder if I am one of those uptight, cramped people. I have also had problems with my gallbladder, and my asthmatic condition-(G.V.): Gallbladder? (F.P.): Yes, it was taken out. (G.V.): Have you suffered a lot health-wise? (F.P.): Yes, I think so.
(G.V.): How do you feel about this? What are your thoughts about this?
(RP:): Even as a little girl, I thought a lot about it. I’ve tried to cope with it. I come from a religious family, and in a way my mother fostered the belief that in those circumstances my illness is something that I have to cope with.
(G.V.): Yes, I understand that your mother felt this way, but what do you feel? Have you accepted these conditions? Or do you cry and pray?
(F.P.): No, I don’t weep anymore. I have to accept my illness, I have to live with it. After all, I had to go on living my life, and I wanted to go on living. (G.V.): Do you enjoy life?
(F.P.): Yes, I do. I enjoyed my job, I had friends, I was in a close-knit family.
(G. V.): Can you describe your feelings? How would you describe your feelings today? Do you experience depressions, anxieties or irritabilities? I have to know your inner state. (F.P.): I think that I’ve thought too much about my illnesses. I think I’ve spent all my time thinking about my condition and how to cope with it. I think too much about it even now. But I’m not a depressed person. I think I’m a robust, strong person. A mixture perhaps of robust and tender. (G. V.): Do you cry easily? (F.P.): I did more in the past.
(G.V.): Under what circumstances would you cry now? (F.P.): I couldn’t tell you that. I don’t know any longer. (G.V.): You never cry anymore?

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