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Celle Seminar I, Case 8: Psoriasis

(F.P.): It was Gestalt therapy.
(G.V.): And you consider yourself to be much more open now? (F.P.): Yes, and I have more self-confidence. (G. V.): Did you have a very great lack of self-confidence before? (F.P.): Yes, I think so.
(G.V.): What would you do? Give an example. (F.P.): I stayed at home because I was too frightened to go out, to go to town, to do the shopping. My husband did everything for me because he understood my trouble and my diseases. He always said, »I’ll do everything for you, you can lay down and rest.« I didn’t have a job. I did very little around the house be¬cause I felt ill and exhausted and frightened that I would not suc¬ceed in finishing what I’d begun. (G. V.): Even cooking?
(F.P.): I did cook, but not very much. Later on, I left my husband and I went into psychotherapy and a lot changed in my life. (G.V.): What changed?
(F.P.): One little thing was that I got my driver’s license, that was the first visible thing I did. I drove the car myself, (laughs) (G.V.): And then you felt more confident?
(F.P.): Yes. I then had a boyfriend; he was an older man. I lived with him for six years and I worked in his practice—he is a doctor. I was also his patient. (G. V.): And then what else did you do? (F.P.): Then he left me. I felt very down, very depressed. (G.V.): Did you feel that you wanted to commit suicide? (F.P.): Yes, but I have a son from my husband. I think if it hadn’t been for him, I would have killed myself, at least I think so. All this coincides with the start of my migraines. The headaches didn’t start at once, but rather developed over a period of a few months. I had to change work, houses, my entire life changed. I even had to look for a new doctor, (laughs) (G. V.): So, when he left you, you wanted to kill yourself but you didn’t, only because of your son, is that right? (F.P.): Yes, I think so.

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