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The Celle Seminars_Page 206

George Vithoulkas

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(G.V.): What he says does not indicate a Pulsatilla element. Pulsatilla tries to put the blame on somebody else; she does not easily take responsibility for her situation. Most probably he went through a period in which he cried and screamed because he did not want to have the pains. Eventually, after years of misery, he came to accept his illness, perhaps through his connection to religion. This is not like Pulsatilla, who has problems accepting her disease. She prefers instead to blame someone else for her suffering.

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(M.P.): I was very angry about it, but I think I got used to it. Now most of the time I try to live with my pain and to accept my limits. If I try to exceed my limits, I run into problems, so I just try to accept them. The biggest problem I have is when I first tell people about my disease because then they treat me differently. In school, for example, everyone would try to make sure that they did not stress me too much and that I was comfortable, but I’d rather be treated just like a normal person. (G.V.): You don’t like to be treated specially, do you? (M.P.): Yes. Sometimes when I didn’t feel up to things, or if I felt incapable of participating, I felt that I should just admit it. But then sometimes I did things, regardless of how I felt, just so no one would take notice of me, so that I’d be considered »normal«. Sometimes I’d get mad about my limitations and about being treated differently.
(G.V.): In what areas do you feel limited?
(M.P.): Mostly in sports. I could never play tennis or windsurf. I would have liked to do such things.

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