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The Celle Seminars_Page 151

Celie Seminar I, Case 5: Myelogenous Leukemia

(M.P.): Because of both.
(G.V): Are you critical of others? Do you criticize a lot? (M.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): Very hard criticism? (M.P.): Other people say a lot, but-
(G. V): Have you kept a lot of anger inside concerning your parents? Do you feel that they mistreated you? (M.P.): At the moment I’m reading a book that contains a chapter on overcoming internal anger, which interests me a lot. (G.V.): Do you care about your health?
(M.P.): Yes I do, and it shows in my trying to hold to a macrobiotic diet, which isn’t always very easy. I am also trying to be physically active.
(G. V): What is your attitude towards life? Would you say that if you died it wouldn’t matter, or are you afraid of dying? (M.P.): What is very important for me is the time between now and death. Death itself is not such a big thing. (G. V): You aren’t afraid of death?
(M.P.): The Eskimos say, »It’s just a second in time.« My primary fear is having to live like before, like a pensioner. I’m afraid of my energies becoming low, or that I-
(G.V.): Are you afraid of becoming an invalid, someone who is not able to look after himself?
(M.P.): Yes, and of becoming depressed and unhappy and walking around with a sad face (mimics). It’s getting on my nerves. (G. V): Are you an easily irritated person? (M.P.): Yes, I think so.
(G.V.): What do you do when you’re irritated? (M.P.): I try to be quiet, like right now. (laughs) (G. V): Are you irritated at the moment? (M.P.): Yes. (G.V): Very?
(M.P.): There are too many questions.
(G.V): Why are you protecting yourself from the questions? Why haven’t you volunteered more information about yourself?

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