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Celle Seminar I, Case 4: Neurodermatiris/Neurotic Fear/Alopecia

(G. V.): Are you a religious person?
(M.P.): I’m not a very religious person. The church wasn’t forme after I was sixteen, seventeen years old.
(G. V): Did you still go to church when you were sixteen, seventeen years old? Were you very active in the church? (M.P.): No, I did not participate in church organizations, for example, the scouts.
(G. V): Did you ever feel the need to pray in very special moments when you were feeling very desperate? (M.P.): Very rarely.
(G. V): Did your prayers come from deep down inside? (M.P.): No.
(G. V.): Was the problem that you felt a conflict because you didn’t believe, and so you felt that you couldn’t ask for anything through your prayers?
(M.P.): It’s not that I don’t believe at all, I just have strong doubts as to whether there is such a thing as God. Maybe it is a conflict based on the fact that I do technical things. When I think of machines it is difficult for me to believe that there is such a thing as a God, but perhaps that’s not right. In my mind I know it isn’t right, I know this now. I’ve always wanted to look at machinery and computers and things like that as something absolute, and I know that’s nonsense. (G. V.): Do you have brothers or sisters? (M.P.): A younger sister.
(Therapist): His sister also had problems, but she’s doing better now.
(G.V.): How was your childhood?
(M.P.): I wasn’t allowed to contradict my mother, and if I did contradict her, she would talk to me until I had admitted that I was wrong, although I really didn’t see that I was wrong. My father was more tolerant. He left me a little more freedom. (Therapist): His parents are both architects. His mother is very dominant. (G.V.): A very dominant woman?

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