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every minute, especially in this crisis. She feels much weaker and more nervous if she misses a meal. When I asked what brought on this acute crisis now, she said that she and her husband began talking about buying a home some day. She said that she is the responsible one in the family, and she was the one to finally say: »Yes, we must make this decision to buy a home.« That sense of pressure and responsibility, even though it was in the future, brought on all this pressure, she said.

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(G.V.): Causative factor here: The crisis was brought about by a discussion with her husband on whether or not they should buy a house. They decided to buy one. Because she feels that she is the responsible person in the family, the responsibility for this decision rests on her and this triggered the attack. What else did she say? When she misses a meal she does not feel well. What is this symptom called? It is a symptom for Lycopodium. She also said that she always wants somebody with her, by her side. If she has been very thirsty all her life and wants somebody next to her all the time, this is Phosphorus. If she is sweet and wants somebody and she is anxious, then she is Phosphorus. If she is Phosphorus, she will drink water in big quantities, very cold water.
We’re going now to differentiate between different kinds of thirst and kinds of water, and the sort of responsibility that is a big thing for her. Who does not want responsibility? Lycopodium does not want responsibilities, especially concerning family affairs and children, they don’t like it. Not that they don’t like the idea of these responsibilities beforehand, it’s just that after these responsibilities become reality Lycopodium doesn’t like them anymore. Lycopodium does not think very much about children beforehand; but after the children are born they don’t like the idea of them. They feel constricted, they feel obliged to stay. There comes a time when they feel they cannot stand the responsibility anymore and they tend to abandon their family. What she says here is a different thing; did you hear something else as well? An element of her that is becoming quite prominent is that she does not want a family; she is taking the pill. She most probably does not want the responsibility of having a child, that is why she is taking the pill. She doesn’t want the house, she doesn’t want the children, she doesn’t want the responsibility. Another piece of information that has been given is her insecurity, she feels very insecure. Now, create in your mind a picture of that sort of anxiety: a person who is insecure and indecisive. Now imagine what behavior and reactions that sort of person would exhibit.