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having children. And this look, this unprotected, open look makes you feel sympathetic towards her. Normally we have natural barriers that prevent us from being open all the time, but the look she has now is one usually reserved for a very intimate love affair – when she is leaving herself open -and not when you present yourself on a video in front of a lot of people. If somebody is very weak, then he has no protection mechanisms, and you can see that in his eyes. That is why you tend automatically to protect a child, because they have that innocent and unprotected look. That is the state in which she has been, the anxiety. What kind of anxiety? What remedy? This is a good film because this is the original film, and not a copy. Unfortunately the follow-up is a copy, and so you will not be able to see these details; but if you could, you would see by her eyes that what is going on in her head, her thoughts, are the thoughts of a child. These thoughts come through her eyes.
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(G.V.): Do you have thoughts of suicide, things like that? (F.P.): I have, but I realize that it is not the right thing to do. I just don’t know how I can keep going on like I am going on; that (suicide) is against my religion, I wouldn’t do that.
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(G.V.): You can see that she does not have suicidal thoughts.
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(G.V.): How is your memory?
(F.P.): Lately it hasn’t been very good, sometimes I forget things. It’s
been like that since I took Lycopodium; it just seems that I don’t have a
good memory.
(G.V.): When you went to school, was it easy for you to learn?
(F.P.): It was difficult for me to learn.
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(G.V.): Why do I ask this question? You are probably thinking that I am just wasting my time, right? I am, in a way, but what I try to show or confirm, to myself, is whether the remedy that appears to be indicated now has been indicated all along. Is this a constitutional type? Is this acute anxiety presenting me a picture of a remedy that has been there all along, right