how anxious he really is. We can then differentiate between the anxiety seen with Arsenicum, or Phosphorus, or Argentum, or Aconitum, or Calcarea, or Kali arsenicum, or Nitricum acidum; every one of these remedies will express anxiety in a certain way. How does he express his own fears?
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(M.P.): …1 think it’s basically fear, and that is my main problem. (G.V.): Fear of heart attack?
(M.P.): It is not fear of my heart, just fear of losing my health or becoming ill; like if I get a small thing, like a pain or something, I immediately think that it is something serious, or the appendix, you know.
(G.V.): Did you have any skin eruptions that you suppressed during that age?
(M.P.): Not to my knowledge.
(G.V.): What happened during that age, what happened when you were twenty years old? Something happened to change it. (M.P.): Well, the only thing – it’s difficult putting things down to causes – I used to tell the doctors the story that I am now going to tell you: I smoked marihuana one night, and became very affected by it, my heart was greatly affected by the marihuana. Lots of people tell me that this is a usual thing, but I’d had alcohol, and then I laid on my bed and my heart was racing and racing. All I can remember is that I had great fear with it and I thought that I was going to die, but I woke up in the morning. But a few months after that I did not feel well, I felt perhaps that might have been a cause. Other than that, in my life, I was having great difficulty knowing what to do with my life. I was working for my father, and I was not happy working for him. There was family pressure to work in the family business and I did not really want to do it; so that was happening as well. (G.V.): Was there anything else?
(M.P.): Well, I had a difficulty with a girlfriend at the time. I’d been going with her for four years and she kept breaking the relationship off, and this used to send me into upsets. Finally I left her, I broke the relationship off. I needed to get away, I went to live in Paris.