G.V.: Here we have a remedy which in my experience has the
greatest anxiety and suffering on the mental level, of all the
remedies. The state is characterised by the
The remedy with the
strongest and most four first letters of ‘Helleborus’: Hell. It is
agonizing state of really hell. The state of Helleborus is the
anxiety
state of hell. Not in any other remedy have I
ever experienced such anxiety, such agony, this state of a soul which is in hell and which is burning and suffering. Like they describe hell in Christianity: you are boiling, your soul is boiling.
A person in a Helleborus state feels that his whole being is
disintegrating. It is a state in which he will try to keep the pieces
together, but the pieces will not stay, they
Sensation as if his just go away to the outside to disintegrate into
entire being is
disintegrating separate pieces. It’s not simply a dichotomy;
it’s not simply a schizophrenia. It is schizophrenia multiplied by a thousand times, because the person has the awareness of what is happening inside him.
He is aware that “I am disintegrating”. I believe that what we say “of one who is going to hell” is a feeling similar to that type which Helleborus feels during the anxiety states. Such tremendous anxiety and fear and despair. Everything is falling apart. And then they cry: “Somebody must help, but immediately! Please! Help, help, help!”
It’s as if you are on a boat that goes up and down and you want to vomit, and you have a feeling as if your soul will come out. It wants to come out from all parts of your head. There is a state in which you cry: “God help me, help me, help me…”