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CelJe Seminar I, Case 15: Forgetfulness/Depression

(G. V.): You said that you forget everything. What do you mean by that?
(F.P.): I forget all my appointments if I don’t write them down. Last night I had to look up when I was supposed to be here. I had a vague idea—8:30 or 9:00 a.m.—but I still had to look. I have the same problem when I go shopping. I have to have reminders of what I’m actually supposed to buy, otherwise I’ll buy something quite different and come out without the things that I wanted. For example, I’ve got a wine cellar, and if I go down there to get something, I come back with something other than what I intended. And then I have to run back and forth three times or so before I come back with what I really wanted. (G. V.): Did this problem with your memory start suddenly, or did it develop slowly?
(F.P.): It’s been a gradual thing. I think I should add that it runs a bit in the family. All my aunts who had migraines had this sort of problem, like putting things on the stove and then forgetting about them.
(G. V.): It seems to me you have suffered in your life. (F.P.): I’m not sure about that. Perhaps I have a tendency to experience things more strongly, to live things out more strongly and to suffer more strongly than some people. I like suffering a little.
(G. V.): Have you cried a lot in your life?
(F.P.): I couldn’t say that. When my father died—he had suffered a long time—I wept a lot.
(G.V.): Are you generally someone who weeps a lot? (F.P.): I wouldn’t say that either. When we watch a sad animal film all three of us weep. But generally, when I’m sad I tend to bottle it up and not weep. (G. V.): Can you describe your inner state? (F.P.): Completely arbitrary. I’m restless, sometimes tired. Sometimes I’m impatient, dissatisfied, and then suddenly I feel enterprising. It’s inconsistent. (G.V.): But what is your main state?

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