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Celle Seminar I, Case 5: Myelogenous Leukemia

You see, people who do not attain very much aren’t necessarily stupid; on the contrary, they may have to think much more than someone who goes from high school to a B.A. degree to an M.D. degree and then a career. The pressures are not as great for someone who has been successful in life. Successful people do not have as many reasons to question their lives and how things are working out for them. But someone who is intelligent and has not yet been accepted in society, or who does not fit into what society calls the norm, has to think more on his own in order to get by. These sorts of people stand up for themselves and don’t accept being pressured. I represent authority, and this reminds him of his father, the police, etc. In fact, I was worse than the police, because the police asked about facts that he could relate and I asked about inner facts that he wanted to conceal. Why did he want to conceal them? Because he felt that if he revealed certain things he would have revealed certain aspects of his weaknesses, and he didn’t want to appear weak. If he had let himself slip into a weak position, I might have been able to put him down like others—particularly his father—have done. So, this must be a remedy that does not like to be pressured. At the same time, it could be a remedy that is also very passionate—despite his being so rational—because of the sexual relationships that he describes. This is a person with a strong sexual passion and sexual energy. It might be that sometimes his emotions are too strong and at a certain point he becomes afraid of his own emotions and has to cut back the closeness in the relationship. Do you remember where he said that he needed freedom because he was becoming too attached to his girlfriend, and when that happened he became tremendously jealous? How would you go about finding all this, the analysis of his character, in the repertory?
I feel that the way he described his friends was very censorious and critical. He is obviously capable of being quite aggressive. Since all the spiritual groups he joined eventually threw him out, I’d say that his aggressiveness can be overt, external as well as internal. He may not express the aggressiveness he has inside, but others perceive it nevertheless. In listing some of his personality

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