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The Celle Seminars_Page 118

George Vithoulkas

(M.P.): Very easily. (G.V.): Where?
(M.P.): On the head, neck, thorax. (G.V.): Is your perspiration offensive? (M.R): I don’t think so.
(G.V,); Does your headache get worse when you are hungry? (M.R): No.
(G.V.): Do you have any fears?
(M.P.): I don’t like walking in the woods alone. It’s not that I’m afraid of walking in the woods, but at the back of my mind there is this sort of fear that somebody might be lurking behind a tree. But this doesn’t actually stop me from walking in the woods. I’m able to rationalize my feelings even though I am slightly afraid. (G.V.): Do you also have this feeling when walking down streets alone?
(M.P.): No. It’s not precisely fear, it’s just that I seem to be incapable of doing anything right. For example, if I go shopping, I wonder in the back of my mind whether people are trying to cheat me or not; I have the feeling that they might. (G. V.): Where do you find your sexual outlet? (M.P.): I remember pictures I’ve seen and I’ve watched films. (G.V.): And after you’ve had an orgasm, do you feel very exhausted or terrible or better?
(M.P.): Exhausted and a little bit calmer. Until about a year ago this sort of helped me work out my troubles, as a sort of valve. It’s really the same but I have less energy now. Naturally I miss tenderness. I realize that this can’t actually be the real thing, what I really want.
(G.V.): Do you feel better or worse at night, after sunset? (M.P.): In some way I do look forward to night, but I wouldn’t say that I really feel any better then. I find the lighting at night is more pleasant because it’s darker. I’m more comfortable driving a car at night, although I find that the light from oncoming cars dazzles me. The same applies when I take a walk at night; I find the night is more pleasant for me.

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