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George Vithoulkas

(Therapist): He also developed computers programs. He told me that he has a special stereo system that enables him to listen to his favorite music in the best possible quality. (G.V.): Do you like music very much?
(M.P.): 1 love music, but now my headaches are so bad that I simply can’t stand listening to music.
(G.V.): Are you musically inclined? Do you play an instrument? (M.P.): I think I’m a little bit musically inclined. I studied music for a few years, but maybe I didn’t start with the right instrument. For me, music is something emotional, it flows. I know that with music one can feel better over a period of time. (G.V.): How do you know this? Has music helped you personally to feel better?
(M.P.): It doesn’t necessarily make me better or more capable of accomplishing things. Music just gives me a feeling of happiness. (G.V.); But you feel better with music, happier? (M.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): What do you think about life?
(M.P.): The way I think of life is that I haven’t got the tools today to tackle my life head-on, to take action. For example, with computer linguistics: it was a subject that interested me, but I might have become too interested in it and regarded it as a symbol of a higher truth.
(G.V.): Computer linguistics was not the end of the world, it was not the truth, it was not God; so what was it to you? (M.P.): Not God, but love.
(G.V.): Okay, but you still didn’t answer my original question: what is your attitude on life? I mean, is your life good or do you have problems? Do you enjoy life or is it an ordeal? (M.P.): Nothing seems to be going right in my life. I feel completely hopeless, as though there were no point in my trying to do anything.
(G.V.): Have you ever thought of suicide? (M.P.): Yes, but at the last minute I always think, »Well, perhaps things will go right after all.« (Therapist): He still hopes.

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