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Celle Seminar I, Case 2: Insanity

(G.V.): So, his proposal was independent of any effort on your
part; he simply wanted to marry you?
(F.P.): I would like to detach his marriage proposal to me from
the one he made to the other woman because these proposals did
not directly follow one another. I do think that, had I not been
pregnant, my husband might not have married me. But at the
time it was the only proper thing for him to do. My husband felt
it was the answer to his prayers that I could not go through with
the abortion and came back to him, particularly because he was
the one who instigated the abortion proceedings in the first
place.
(G.V.): I don’t follow.
(F.P.): I felt that it was my responsibility. I could not go through
with the abortion for reasons of my own. My husband felt my
decision was an act of God. I think this helps show the difference
between my husband’s standpoint and my own. You see, he never
really wanted me to have the abortion. He prayed that I would
change my mind, and his prayer was answered.
(G.V.): Do you feel worse in heat or in cold?
(F.P.): I feel better in a cool room, but I tend to freeze very easily.
(G.V.): Do you perspire a lot?
(F.P.): If I’m afraid, I perspire profusely.
(G.V.): Is there any time, besides when you are in a crisis, that
you are afraid? Do you have any particular fears other than fear
of the future?
(F.P.): I’m frightened of speaking in front of a lot of people.
When I saw all those people sitting out there, I certainly got
frightened.
(G. V.): Apart from that, do you have any prevailing, everyday
fears?
(F.P.): No.
(G.V.): I’m afraid I’ve asked you difficult questions.
(F.P.): No, they weren’t difficult; the difficult ones are probably
yet to come.
(G.V.): Does that mean you’ve kept a lot back that you didn’t
tell?

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