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Celle Seminar I, Case 2: Insanity

(G.V.): Ah, a young man. (addresses patient) Briefly, what is your side of the story?
(F.P.): The meeting hadn’t been over long when my husband arrived. I can understand that my husband was worried at the time. In that situation, if I would have been my husband and was afraid that something had happened with the car, I would have gone up to us and said, » Well look, you know, I’ve been terribly worried.« If he had approached me in this way, I could have integrated him into the situation and then everything would have been okay. But things didn’t work out this way. If they had, then that would have been the end of it. Instead he used this incident as further support for his jealousy, which really had begun much earlier. For example, in 1978, when I was in the process of getting my driver’s license, my husband objected to me doing it alone; he always wanted to be there for my driving lessons. This was a constant source of psychological stress for me. I was constantly worried at the time, but I wasn’t sure of what I was really worried about. When I passed my driver’s test I had to sign a letter, written by my husband, in which I had to swear by God, or by something like that, that under no circumstances and at no time ever had I had any sexual relations with my driving instructor. This is just an example of the level these difficulties had reached at that time. Our problems began in 1978, and it is against the background of these difficulties, which covered a period of years, that I personally see my first attack. (G.V.): The first attack was in 1981, is that right? How do you feel now? What is your emotional state at the moment? (F.P.): I’m very agitated, particularly because of the way my husband has presented some things. I want my feelings to be understood properly. Perhaps that’s why I appear so agitated. (G. V.): I’m not asking about your feelings at this particular mo¬ment but rather how you’ve been emotionally over the last few months. Have you experienced fear, anxiety, depression? Have you been happy or unhappy?
(F.P.): Of course the fact that the psychotic episodes, my problem area, have become more frequent has started to worry me and

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