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THE BERN SEMINAR-PAGE 74

(F.P.): Well, what happened…
(G.V.): Never mind the remedy, it cannot work if you just go outside with pneumonia.
(F.P.): I know. Well, I’ve been very, very careful the last few days. What happened was, I got what seemed to be maybe, maybe, a bad flu, or maybe a little touch of bronchitis, and I rested and stayed home from work – I run a t’ai chi center but I’m also director of youth center, which I run in the afternoons. I stayed away from the center, went back the next day, stayed away another day, and then went on with my usual t’ai chi teaching schedule: gave t’ai chi demonstrations doing advanced exercises, a lot of intense, stupid things, and that I think is why… Well, that’s only part of the picture, the full picture is the fact that I’m also going to graduate school. I stay up many times all-night long, and I drink a lot of Japanese green tea, which has caffeine in it. I had stopped drinking it and I had just started again to do so and I just completely debilitated my body. I know, I’m grateful, in a way, for this experience because I think it is so intense that it will have made a lasting impression on me that will make me change my habits, so that I won’t be just helping all my t’ai chi students. (G.V.): You’re not married, are you?
(F.P.): No. I did live with someone for eleven years and we had a very satisfying relationship, but my t’ai chi practice has kind of led me into a place where I don’t really feel like I want to be married. And my frustration with the t’ai chi work is that I’m caring for so many other people that I haven’t done my own practice sufficiently. And it’s a combination of t’ai chi exercises and breathing techniques, all of which would have kept me very strong and healthy. But my own practice is quite limited because I am so busy taking care of other people and sleeping three hours a night and going on year after year like this. Finally it just gave up.
(G.V.): Do you feel very much for other people… (F.P.): Yeah, to a point where it is self-destructive. (G.V.): Do you eat sweets?
(F.P.): I did for years and years, a horrible, violent craving for sweets, and it gave me a very bad case of diabetogenic hypoglycemia, which I still have some of. I stopped eating sugar. But then in the last year, sometimes when I’ve been trying to stay up all-night, for two and three nights in a row, I’ve tried a combination of eating chocolate and – this