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THE BERN SEMINAR-PAGE 67

up and down this side, right in this quadrant of my head. (Coughs) There’s a constant pounding and heat and pressure in my head, throbbing.
(G.V.): Do you have any fear?
(F.P.): Let’s see, a little bit; I don’t so much now. I actually had more fear before I found out that it really was pneumonia. I was quite relieved to know that it was just pneumonia, I was beginning to think that it was something really worse than that. My only concern is that it will go on to a point where I’ll be really debilitated because I’ll keep having these negative responses to whatever I try. I’m pretty sure that I’m allergic to whatever drug would be the last resort. (G.V.): Have you taken a lot of antibiotics in the past? (F.P.): Years ago, yes I did. (G.V.): Couldyou tolerate the antibiotics?
(F.P.): Well, at that time I could, but I’m not so sure that I could now (chuckles); that’s why I’m beginning to wonder…
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(G.V.): I’m preparing her…
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(F.P.): …probably, but my body sensitivities are so vast now, and I know that my mother almost died during a bypass operation in which she had a very strong reaction to the drugs; they had to massage her heart for forty-five minutes. So I’m a little concerned about that; but other than that I’m not really afraid. I know that I’ll get well. (Chuckles) I’m just frustrated! I want to go back and get my life together again.
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(G.V.): You see, I am preparing her for the possibility of antibiotics. Is she allergic? Maybe. I’m just preparing for the possibility. I didn’t want to take the responsibility for her dying while I was there; but more important, it’s irresponsible to narrow-mindedly stick to a treatment that is not effective. She says that she has a negative response to the treatment, this means that she feels no amelioration. As you may have guessed, I’m perceiving a remedy now but it is not yet clear. No one knows the remedy at this point.
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(G.V.): Is it mostly the heat that bothers you now, or mostly the cold?